Well, its another sunny day here in Michigan. We are having a heat wave which is quite unusual for June. Yesterday was Katie and Mary's last day of school. We went to Mcdonalds for lunch and then to my brother's house to see his puppy Molly. We made ice cream sundaes while we were there and then headed home to rest while watching a movie. Katie and Mary have been performing their dance this weekend. I'm going to the 7pm show tonight. This afternoon is my friend Cherea's bridal shower. She will be getting married in a couple of weeks and then moving to S. Dakota.

Leslie is home for the next couple of weeks. She will be graduating from the Honor Academy in August. I will try to be there for her as much as I can. I hope she will do better than I did when coming out. At least she will have me. I had no one! I remember what a terrible time it was trying to adjust back to this kind of life. I would go out driving and just weep and cry. It was like being in a bad dream and not be able to stop it. I was so lonely and lost. Sometimes I think I still haven't recovered. But, God is here too and I've probably learned harder lessons than I could have if I had stayed on in the H.A. It is harder to serve God in the middle of nothing. It is most difficult to trust him when nothing seems to be happening.

If I could just see for a minute I would be grateful! If I could just understand! Maybe God is trying to teach me to trust him anyway. You know what I hope? I hope that when Leslie comes home she will be a friend to me, and not just me to her. God only knows how I am desperate for a real friend! I desperatly need a friend to hold me accountable and encourage me when I am overwhelmed by hopelessness and lies.