Random Thoughts

I think I over-analyze myself. I often take a normal conversation, email, or action that I do and I scrutinize it in retrospection until I am overcome with anxiety at my fault. I may be a perfectionist, or I simply may have picked up this habit from my mother. Some self-analysis and retrospection is good, but too much can have a detrimental effect upon a person. It really takes the joy out of some things. Maybe it is worry. Worry over things that I really have no control over. Letting it go is easier said than done. It could be that I have no patience with myself. I give myself no room to make mistakes and therefore I do not expect anyone else to either. It could be Obsessive Compulsive Disorder except my over-analyzing thoughts don't drive me to do any obssesive compulsive behavior in order to release anxiety (like compulsive counting- I guess I can thank my phobia for that). Maybe it's just insanity, and I'm the only one that doesn't notice. Have you ever wondered if others perceive you as crazy or even slighltly retarded and you're the only one who doesn't know. After all, If you are crazy or retarded you would think you were normal! Perhaps it is just frail human nature that is the culprit for an overanalyzing, perfectionist, impatient, OCD, worry-wart.
God help me.