Thursday, December 08, 2005

What If I...

Late at night awake in the dark
Looking out of my window down at the park,
The shadows so shifty stole sleep from my eyes
With their slinking charade of “What if I” lies.

What if I can’t learn to snowboard?
What if I break my leg?

What if I can’t find a job after school?
What if I only can beg?

What if I lose my way in life?
What if I never arrive?

What if I never become a wife?
What if I live like I’m five?

What if I forget my homework?
What if I fail every class?

What if I go completely berserk?
What if I shatter like glass?

All of these “What ifs” tormenting my mind
Make life seem like it will end.
Then I remember, all snug in my bed,
That I have a very good friend.

He promised He’d be here, He won’t ever leave.
He loves me, He made me, He knows what I need.
I smile and breathe and close my eyes
As the trifling “What ifs” say their goodbyes.


4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I enjoyed your poem. I think you'll do great whatever you choose to do! You have stick-to-it-ness. I sure am glad that your Friend is also my Friend and is there for me too.

anna said...

Here, here! I heartily agree!

Anonymous said...

You're so freakin' cute!! loved it babe!

Anonymous said...

Those questions haunt the best of us. Mine usually runs something to the effect of:
WHAT THE FREAKIN HECK AM I DOING HERE??
So on and so forth. It's not bad to ask those questions, or to want answers. It's when those questions dominate your life, or you seek answers anywhere other then from God, that you get into trouble.
So, what if...
The answer is always there. With Jesus that question no longer is frightening to answer, but exciting.
What if...
You and Jesus make the answer.