Phillip: Episode I

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Phillip: Episode II

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Leaving for Chicago

Tomorrow morning I am leaving for Chicago to do the leadership seminar with Teen Mania. I am considering a mission trip with them and must complete a seminar to see my eligibility for leadership on a trip. My flight leaves at six am tomorrow and I'll arrive in Chicago at 5:58 am. It is going to be an early morning and a long day. The seminar starts a 8:30 am and ends at 7:30 pm. I will fly into Grand Rapids at around 11:42 pm to end my day. I am excited, but nervous also because it will be very challenging and stretching. I will be evaluated all day on everthing I do! If you think of me tomorrow, please pray. Pray also that the Lord will give me direction in this as well. I Love you all!

Whew!

Today was an extremely busy day! I am house sitting for my friend Sadie for two days. I left at about nine this morning for Grand Valley where I parked and then caught the 9:58 rapid for downtown Grand Rapids. I had a meeting with my ED advisor on the 9th floor of the Eberhard Center which is where the school of education is located. The meeting went very well and it looks like I'm on track with everything and only have about two semesters left until I can apply at the school of ed where I will do my teacher assisting and student teaching. I caught the next bus going back to the Allendale campus with a couple of hours before my next meeting. I went to lunch in the cafeteria with the hopes of studying for music and eating a pizza hut pizza to the background din of other students. I chose a table completely empty. After purchasing my pizza, I went back to where I had left my stuff and discovered that two girls had sat across from each other one right next to me. This was alright, though I had hoped to have a little room to spread out. In a few minutes however, some of their guy friends came in and sat next to them, one right across from me. They got louder and the talk got nastier. I found myself in the middle of this group with my pizza and book trying to carry on. Not to mention, this whole group were all blacks, so it must have looked pretty funny. I tried to finish up as quickly as I could without getting indigestion, and left almost an hour before my meeting with my music tutor. I waited around studying my music and trying not to be in a bad mood after that lunch. Once my tutor came I told her I had no questions and we decided to cancel. I went to Kirkhof and got some hot chocolate and lounged with my book. I was kind of spacing out when some guy came over and asked if he could sit and talk to me. I said sure and when he saw my music book he got all excited. He is a music major and is in his senior year. We talked about music and a few other things and then he left to work on a composition. I finished studying and then went to class. My music teacher actually did a good job of explaining things and I told her so. I then went to English. We talked about sonnets. When class was over, I met with my English teacher because she is also my Eng. advisor. I am in good shape with my major as well. I then went to Einstein Bros. Bagels and had a blueberry bagel in a lounge chair by the fire place. It was nice and warm on such a cold snowy day. Finally, I went to His House, a campus ministry. They have worship and a speaker. About 100 people attend. I am trying to make some new friends and get involved in something outside of my busy world. I've made a few new friends. At about 9 pm I walked out to my car in the cold for the drive back to muskegon. The roads were good, much better than this morning. I am exhausted.

Mt poor computer is broken. I've had a slightly relaxed spring break. I didn't get much homework done so will probably be craming the first few days back. Bring it on. We are covered in snow and more is floating from the sky. I bought a bathing suit as an act of faith the other day. Not feeling well today. I hope my poor computer will be fixed this time.

Sigh...

Winter keeps dragging on. That is how I feel inside as well. As if I am in the winter of life surrounded by cold and death, and spring will never come. I don't like this season of my life, but God has placed me here and must give me grace to get through it. I just pray I'll be able to get through it without becoming bitter. I pray that I will be able to recognize and embrace the spring of my life, not refuse to beleive it for fear of being "tricked" again.

On a lighter more hopeful note, it appears that I only have a few more semesters left before I enter the School of Ed and do my teacher assisting and student teaching. It could be only a year and a half more. Such relief floods over me when I think of it that I feel as if I will pass out. I have been going to school for so long! So very long. It seems that it will never end. In truth, I had forgotten that there was an end to what I was doing. I was just grinding away, plodding on. Only recently have I begun to realize that when I finish a class, it is behind me. I will never have to take it again, and it has brought me closer to the end. It is spring break this week, but there are assignments due the first week back so I will have to do homework this week. There is no such thing as a break. It is a joke. If I teach in a public school it will be even more demanding I'm sure. I think I'm just a wimp. I need to buck up. But it wears on my mind and spirit so.